Hallucinogen

Another one for the blonde...

Hallucinogen

I'm still hallucinating
so intensely
so that the sight of you is present everywhere
your image projected
in things
in people
I would have never expected
completely at random
My heart comes to a halt
at the mere thought
of our gaze locking
for those few solid moments
And if she were you
A part of me would have died
right then and there
soul lifting and sinking
brain doing backflips
colors
bursting right before my eyes
My very being plummeting to the floor
with a sudden Splat!
All compensation
for my shell of a body
frozen in place
immobile
knees begging to kiss the floor
but I can't possibly move
can barely breathe
mortified
As I spiral in and out of my subconscious
seasick
my mind retrieves memories of us on demand
mistakes I've made,
most probably,
with you
A process that takes no more than seconds
to behold me
calls for a string of lifetimes
to erase
And I am left here
abandoned
staring straight ahead
senses tingling with the absence of feeling
incompetent
assessing the damage after the storm
taken aback by this trip
A fall I hope to never again take
at the sight of you

Silent Smiles

another fresh one!

Silent Smiles

We speak the language of silent smiles.

Tongues tucked away behind teeth,

Lips stretched to the far corners of our faces,

We suppress words altogether,

Refusing to allow even a single thought escape from the confines of our minds.

Like such,

We converse through expressions of glistening eyes.

Like invisible laser beams,

Your icy baby blues

meet my glossy emerald greens

in a battle to take place in crowded rooms or empty hallways

Acknowledging the things we strive to deny

Those feelings,

Those actions,

What the other may or may not know

What we did our very best to hide

Because opening mouths

leads to opening doors

leads to opening more

of me

of you

of sides we never sold

of stories we never told

of love we never shared

of deeds we never dared

of dreams we never dreamed

of things we never seemed

to be certain of.

The ice begins to melt off the basketball court

And the scent of the air is slowly becoming more consistent

With that of the day we spent together

Forming the bond that shall ultimately suffocate us both

As we conceal our histories

behind the silent smiles that we’ve begun to exchange.

Pretty Lady

I couldnt help myself, I just had to put up another one!

Pretty Lady
She can’t sleep

Because we’re too loud

And I try to be accommodating

Anything to keep her around

At least until I get a chance to ask her

If she has betrayed me

But as time progresses

She sends off airplanes

By mistake

And laughs at the joy of life

And I love her again

Want to keep her by my side

Despite what she’s done

Or hasn’t

She’s a real beauty

I’ve known that for a while now

I chose to forget

Though she has become etched in my mind regardless

And it was the last time

The last time I would let myself fall

For a pretty lady

Two Recent Poems

October 2, 2009

Alone Now
With only my pain to remind me
of my undying love for you
of how I'd take a knife to my back
a bullet to my chest
a needle in my arm
all to keep on loving you.
And I pray
as they poke and prod me
I pray
but entirely for you
for every drop of blood they extract from me is yours
For whom I'd get down on my knees
tear out my heart and soul completely
averting my eyes
from the light which blinds me
from the infinite glow of happiness
that is you.



January 4, 2010

This morning I woke up alone,
With the memory of her
still dancing around within the folds of my brain
Touch me
Feel me
Run your fingers down my body
Grab my chest with both hands
Know me
Love me
May I call you?
Could I have your phone number?
Allow me to hear your voice once more
Want me
Need me
Bring on what you had promised to deliver
As I lay here waiting
Still longing for you
years after your departure
Hold me
Soothe me
make all the demons go away.